I’ve often felt inadequate lately.
Ever since we moved, I can’t seem to get on top of things. Blogging—writing—keeping in touch with friends—housecleaning—laundry—unpacking. Each day, it seems, I’m confronted with my inability to keep up with pretty much anything, at least to the extent I think I should.
Then I started realizing, maybe one thing I need to realize is that I am inadequate. I like to stay on the ball, to be the kind of person who has her stuff in order, at school, at work, at home—and when I’m not, I tend to be a bit upset.
As I was working on this blog Sunday night, sitting near my sister on our blue and white quilted twin beds in our new room, I told her what I was writing about.
“Did you see what I put on facebook?” she asked.
“No.”
I looked it up. Here (shared with her permission) is what she had just posted:
“Encouraging quote from church today- ‘what’s awesome about communion, is when we come to the table, we don’t have to have everything all figured out.’ I needed that today…it’s not about me trying to get my life together, but rather about me realizing that I can’t and accepting God’s grace available to me through Jesus.”
Maybe sometimes our Father has to speak the same message to more than one of His children, huh?
He did for the Corinthians through Paul:
“Not that we are adequate in ourselves to consider anything as coming from ourselves, but our adequacy is from God, who also made us adequate as servants of a new covenant…” 2 Corinthians 3:5-6
“But we have this treasure in earthen vessels, so that the surpassing greatness of the power will be of God and not from ourselves…” 2 Corinthians 4:7
I don’t have everything figured out. But God doesn’t expect me to—that’s His job. I just need to try and press close to Him, listen to His voice, and follow what He wants me to do hour by hour and day by day—whether it’s what I had planned or not.
So it’s okay.
Honey, anyone who trumpets how they have it together is deluded. I am SO thankful God goes before me, beside me and behind me.
So true–thanks, Jennifer!